The youth cup season have finally ended yesterday and i need to go back studying. should be MIA for like a few months. After all the tough trainings we have been through and all the tears, sweat that we shed(should be enough to fill up lots of bottles, esp. Chai Luan's ones :))  I guess everyone had gave their all yesterday in the match that we should really lift our heads and be proud! like how coach says WE ARE CHAMPS when we stepped onto the court no matter the outcome. Sure, we are definitely disappointed as the results were not what we expected. Even though i don't contribute much to the team on and off court, i have to say, i am proud and previleged to be part of this team! I remember lots of moments during this period of time in this team.

I remember how coach shouts "打啊" whenever Liying gets the ball.

I remember how coach scolds "哭什么" when we cry over the littlest things.

I remember the 3 pointer and layup Jiaxin put in that literally got the team jumping for joy. And boosted the team's morale to the MAX. and also how she cried over not over missing the free throws but about wanting to go to Hongkong.

I remember the team supper we had after successfully squeezing 11 people into Chai Luan's car. and jokingly said how Rayne will be the only one playing the next day if we got into an accident.

I remember how i broke down for the first time on court but be able to get back up again, thanks to the team's support and encouragement :))

I definitely remember to good times we have after winning the game against Kaixuan and Teck Ghee and seeing the obvious joy on coach's face.

I remember that was the game i score my first basket in the whole entire season and i know the whole team was happy for me too.

I shall remember the team's reaction whenever the ref gave an unjusticed call and the whole bench will grumble about it.

I must remember to apologize to jiaxin for playing with hair all the time, really sorry. but it sort of calm me down when i'm nervous. haha. really sorry if i annoyed you.

I remember the times when Siewling was always missing during the times we needed the most. but when we were worried for her, she will perform amazingly on court.

I will remember the day when Fion told us about Coach bringing us to HK and it became the greatest motivation to the whole team since that day and we even changed the team cheer to 香港！信心！

I remember the team talk we had before the semi-finals that most of the team cried,esp. Xiaoqian and Fion and this was the training that everyone seemed to be of one heart one mind. 

Remembering all these moment will definitely bring a smile to my face whenever i think of all these moments when i studying for my A's.

Good luck and All the best for those having their POL-ITE cup, shall go support if i have the time. Please update me on it! Please take care and don't get hurt! JIAYOU XINXIN!

I NEED TO LET THINGS GO.
or I'll be trap in this viscous cycle of BAD MOOD-NESS and EMO-NESS forever more. and I HATE IT. But i can't help it, i really dunno why. If anyone can help, PLEASE HELP ME. My PW group is sure a PAIN for me. Group is really crappy, all thanks to me lah. I REALLY wanne help and do some work in the WR but i end up irritating everyone else. This really suck. I guess i am really such a pain in the neck. and best of all. there is OP too. SHEESH. I really can't talk in front of SO SO MUCH people. I'll totally freak-ed OUT and my voice will shiver and i'll start shaking. showing ALL the nervousness i have. CRAP.

Just gotten back all my promos results and I think i did well. I THINK ONLY lah. and here comes Khoo Bei-bei saying that i actually didn't do well lor. REALLY THANKS ARH.

but hidayah actually didn't make it....this is really bad and i heard from Krist that she will be leaving us for sure!!! and will be heading for poly instead. but it may be better for her then in a poly then suffer with us in JC. JC life really suck lah.
But thanks Hidayah for all the fun and joy that she have given us this whole year and all the things that she had taught me even though i always irritate her with the bugs on the floor:))) I really wonder what will happen to us next year without hidayah's help in the team. I really hope we can make it. WE MUST HAVE FAITH! and i think my stress level is increasing now. this is REAL BAD. In addition, huimin is also leaving the team as she did quite bad?? she got a really borden line pass of 35, and her parents do not want her to continue playing basketball. Leaving the team now with only 9 people. EVERY SINGLE ONE OF US IS NOW IMPORTANT for next year. Everyone please work hard okay?!!JIAYOUS!!! LET'S GO!!
Why do all these things all come crashing down on me at the same time?!?! ARGHHHHHHHH~

如果忽冷忽热的温柔是你的借口，那我宁愿从没认真过。

 STUDIES is definitely getting on my nerves now.I have like less then two weeks of time to finish ALL of my damn it revision.And FEAR is definitely catching up with me now.PLUS all the trainings and matches i need to attend to too. despite this i still wanne go into second round of the MILO YOUTH CUP! GO KEMBANGAN YOUTH!!! I hope we really beat Admiralty CSC on friday and advance to the second row! WOOTS! i also hoped that Kaixuan will beat Combined White on friday too,so we can kick Combined white OUT of second round.and also be in "zhengmen" that is.who ask them to be U-16 and be in the U-18 category.really an eyesore and an insult to us 18 year olds!! that we can even beat someone who is 1 or 2 years younger than us.ARGH! YEPP! Oh yar, and we still have that idoitic PW behind our heads! WE HATE PW!!! GO AWAY MAN!!! OKAY, i am really out of time now really. but i am still so super damn lazy! like i haven even enjoy my holidays well enough.GO AWAY SCHOOL!! I still wanne enjoy being a seventeen year old without you hindering in my way!!! yes,and btw, I HATE GP TOO! plus that TEACHER!! who was the only one who assigned homework for us!! DAMN YOU! 

OKAY,MY TO DO LIST:
1.FINSHED THAT GODDAMN HOMEWORK I HAVE
2.REVISE ECONS
3.REVISE GEOGRAPHY
4.PRACTISE MATHS MATHS and MORE MATHS
5.CONTINUE BUILDING UP MY STAMINA
6.READ BOTH THE CHINESE AND ENGLISH NEWSPAPERS
7.CONTINUE WITH MY HOMEWORK,REMIND MYSELF I STILL HAVE MOODLE TO DO!
8.MUG AND WORK HARD!
9.WISH IT WILL BE OVER SOON ENOUGH AND GET SOME SHOPPING DONE
10.SAVE MONEY! 
11.CUT SOME LOUSY FATS OFF MY BODY!

PLEASE IGNORE ALL OF MY CRAP.REALLY OUT OF MY MIND MUGGING.